Salam Ma sayang…

 Rupanya A Ceneh yg datang, Alhamdulillah…

Maaf Ma,

Hari ni tidak berkesempatan mengunjungi rumah baru Ma. 

Kereta D3 masih di workshop. Kereta D2 tidak berfungsi. Basikal Ma pun xleh dikayuh. Kena baiki nampaknya…

Buat pertama kalinya, tidak berjumpa Ma dirumah baru. 

Harap Ma tak sedih.  InshaAllah harap bacaan yassin setiap hari tiada noktahnya…

Aaminnnnn…

Oh ya. D1 dah balik selepas maghrib tadi. I guess gd3 bersama nya tadi. Tak sure tho if gd2 is with her.

Semua masuk dalam bilik Ma. Senyap.

Tadi D2 membaca yassin keseorangan, tidak seperti kebiasaan. Bersama anak2 & cucu Ma.

Maaf lagi Ma. 

Is it my fault? Should I have just hold my anger? But I have my conscience intact Ma.

I believe she NEVER said she has ONLINE class. gd2 & gd3 were discussing on UIA comment and we are all getting ready to go out just after tht, whereby I just had my zohor.

Ma sayang…

 Izzah1 just told me gd2 has left the house with a girl friend.

Should I tell the mom or not?

Ma sayang…

 It’s been 12 days  since you left us…

It’s hard… we had a bloody big row today. 

It was between me & you beloved gd2; then it’s escalated with the involvement of D1 & D3.

Sedihnya ma…

Parah nya hati ni fikir, macamana bleh terfikir di benak fikirannya, sampai ke situ sekali pemikirannya.

D1 left the house with gd3, I talked to gd2; but she just gave me the hands…

I just do not know what to do. Do not know how to talk to her. 

She ber AKU ENGKAU with her mom, siapalah kami ni plak…

I asked her afterwards, with the absents of her mom & gd3;

Why?

Kenapa perlu marah smpai mcm tu? Kenapa perlu benci satu dunia?

What did we do wrong? What makes her so mad with the whole world?

I just cant get through her Ma… 

Even when d3 talked tru the wall, she just ignored us…

In the end, 

I just let it be…

She just wana be ALONE in this world I guess…

We both [me & d3] are nothing to her…

Life aint suck!

 I am just suck at it!!!

 this is how I feel at this moment…

It’s the 2nd last day of the month

Yeah…And I havent done anything yet.

R’s proposal, yet to submit the requirement. Well, actually requirement hasnt come out yet but I know which report should be submitted and should have done that last week.

So many things to do. Thats not NEWS!!!!

Been on movies marathon for so many weeks now, months even! 

Should have get myself on tracks by now! Well, should have done that months before actually.

Should have do that!

Should have do this!

Should have done that!

Should have done this!

Story of m4kcik’s life!!!

This should be it!

 

How do I go about this???