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Thursday, September 9, 2021

Ma sayang…

 Izzah1 just told me gd2 has left the house with a girl friend.

Should I tell the mom or not?

Ma sayang…

 It’s been 12 days  since you left us…

It’s hard… we had a bloody big row today. 

It was between me & you beloved gd2; then it’s escalated with the involvement of D1 & D3.

Sedihnya ma…


Parah nya hati ni fikir, macamana bleh terfikir di benak fikirannya, sampai ke situ sekali pemikirannya.


D1 left the house with gd3, I talked to gd2; but she just gave me the hands…


I just do not know what to do. Do not know how to talk to her. 


She ber AKU ENGKAU with her mom, siapalah kami ni plak…


I asked her afterwards, with the absents of her mom & gd3;


Why?


Kenapa perlu marah smpai mcm tu? Kenapa perlu benci satu dunia?


What did we do wrong? What makes her so mad with the whole world?


I just cant get through her Ma… 

Even when d3 talked tru the wall, she just ignored us…


In the end, 

I just let it be…

She just wana be ALONE in this world I guess…

We both [me & d3] are nothing to her…



Friday, July 30, 2021

Life aint suck!

 I am just suck at it!!!


 this is how I feel at this moment…

It’s the 2nd last day of the month

Yeah…And I havent done anything yet.


R’s proposal, yet to submit the requirement. Well, actually requirement hasnt come out yet but I know which report should be submitted and should have done that last week.

So many things to do. Thats not NEWS!!!!

Been on movies marathon for so many weeks now, months even! 

Should have get myself on tracks by now! Well, should have done that months before actually.


Should have do that!


Should have do this!


Should have done that!


Should have done this!


Story of m4kcik’s life!!!

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

Monday, July 19, 2021

Friday, August 21, 2020

What i miss the most

 .... at this moment is;

the feeling of helplessly in love 


Wonder I am, if the feeling ever be mine again.